Motherhood

Motherhood is:
wishing for bedtime, but missing them as they sleep.
it’s wondering when they need you a little less, but also wanting to freeze the time
motherhood is a constant push and pull
it’s being constantly surrounded but sometimes feeling lonely
it’s craving time for yourself but feeling guilty for wanting it
it expands your perspective in ways you can’t imagine
it tests your patience strenght
motherhood is giving your heart, your body, yourself, but you wouldn’t trade it for the world
not even for a second
You’ve got this

I share a lot on my instagram, both high and lows.
The other week I wrote about being a parent and how it is for the first time with a baby.
Our Finn is the most adorable boy. Like all other babies.
They cry They smile, They poop, They are lovely, They are a lot.

It’s alright to say it’s damn hard, the motherhood part I mean.
24h a day you give everything you have. With zero paus.
It is ok to think they are demanding. It is ok to feel you might wanna have a paus.
I wrote once before, that parents tend to forget the ”hard” times. Hahah! even I started to question myself the other week when Finn were smiling and being the cutest. When I shared my feelings on instagram a while ago the respons were massive.
It saddens me in a way that mothers are scared saying it’s hard and the rest. Many has been thanking me for sharing what they also feel, but been scared talking about it themself.

I can only speak for myself but to work 100% is nothing compared being at home with a baby. The partner who complains being tired after a day at work should shut it.
To be the one who wakes up few times every night for feed and perhaps to give the baby comfort, to be at home with no ‘breaks’ , to be at home with the baby and as soon as they sleep you do laundry, lunch, dinner, clean, or if you are lucky you might make it to the toilet without hearing them crying.
Perhaps I should let go of all the ” to do’s ” but if I’m not preparing soon as I have the chance, or clean up the mess I have in front of me I stress out. Can’t stand the mess or knowing I’ve got lots todo.

I do love being home with Finn don’t get me wrong, there are many golden moments for sure. So much love and laughter !
Last wednesday he laughed super loud, it was the cutest thing ever. And I noticed he’s super ticklish on his stomach and neck.

We are entering week 10 this coming week, he’s growing so fast it’s crazy! Lots of things happening every day and the love I feel for little Finn is endless.

Motherhood.
motherhood is giving your heart, your body, yourself, but you wouldn’t trade it for the world
not even for a second
You’ve got this.

xx