Changes

Ok, lack of sleep is getting to me now. Waking up at 01.20am for days in a row is beginning to make me very tired. Waiting for the alarm to ring for Jake so I can say good morning and wave him off to work. Also we say: hope the baby comes today.

Week 42 is here. Had an appointment with my midwife this Friday, and she organised a visit to the hospital for me to pick up some sleeping tablets,
But, they haven’t helped.
What I need to do every day instead, is to go to bed during the day and force myself to sleep for an hour or however long I can.
Till this day in my life I have never been able to have a nap during the day. I hear the wind, the foot steps, almost zero chance of me sleeping during the day.
That is now history. Life is about to change!

My sleeping pattern now is my new life. This is how it will be, which is ok. I need to adjust and change. Luckily we soon have a baby to love and cuddle through the nights, which I’m looking forward to.

So, yesterday I listened to meditation & hypnobirthing – it helped straight away. 1 hour kip- HALLELUA !
Midwife also said,
Miranda let go of the control of wanting to know. You simply can’t know anything about ‘whats going to happen’ ‘when or if it’s close’ – Trust the process – just be.


I remember back to a couple of years ago, when I went through personal training in Florida, my biggest fear & strongest side : is just what happens if I don’t know all the answers.

I found out there and then in 2014 I had a strong need knowing, and I don’t really enjoy not knowing what’s next. Turns me into a control freak. For some reason, knowing the next step has always been very important for me.
I’m much better now, but hearing my midwife say that and giving me a hug took me straight back to my coach in Florida. Shit I must trust the process. Let go of planing, just be.

Puh – I done what I got told. Went to bed, stayed in bed till I was relaxed enough, listened to meditation… slept for one hour. Said I couldn’t see my sisters family due to being so exhausted. I slept. One step in the right direction anyway.

What I don’t think I will do is to drink a hot chocolate in the middle of the night when waking up, that was the midwife tip!
When you wake up at 03.00am make your self a cup of hot chocolate and go back to sleep!
I couldn’t think of anything worse, SUGAR at 03.00 am? My body would stay awake for 24 hour more with that boozt…

Naaaa I think she meant green tea.

For the first time last night I felt really sick, joint with very bad heart burn.
Tiny feels of contractions but only tiny.
Feeling sick, thought I was one step closer, but he’s still not here. Might have to call this boy Santa.

Exciting.

Throwback 13 weeks

Hi,

When I thought I was getting a ‘bump’ in August it was just a tiny one, if you compare to now.

It’s a little bit harder to come up from the sofa, or in the mornings when I wake up.

This photo is taken 10th of August. I’m in week 23.

Just after the way out west festival, I remember how much the baby was kicking during the shows.
Music seems to create a lot of movements.

The picture below is the last day of week 36.
Mama bear is feeling heavy, not so flexible doing my yoga anymore but I’m gonna continue cause it’s so good, gives me a strong mind.

Now I’m off to see the accountant, just finished all paperwork. Some more is coming for december but feeling so relieved now when I’m all done up till now. YAY!

15th of November I’ll be spending all afternoon at FGL Store.
Hope to see you.

xx

 

week 34

”baby is preparing it’s way down. getting ready for delivery”

Yes, that’s what I got in my email this morning. The update for enter every new week.
We’re now in week 34.

I can agree to baby is preparing him self, I feel more pain in my lower parts.
I get sore when laying to long on one side. So sleeping isn’t the comfiest. But it’s ok.
Our pillows are my best friends and sorry Jake for giving them more love than you right now.

Putting socks on – very tricky right now. When doing yoga my belly touches my thighs too, funny feeling. Getting up if been on my knees isn’t the easiest either.

We went to our first parental group last Monday. It’s interesting to listen and take in some stuff, but I’m not sure if we will attend to the next two meetings. Think it’s better if we read up on the stuff at home, since the class was only in Swedish.

The book ‘föda utan rädsla’ seems pretty good to, read 1/3 of it so far.
For me the breath work is the most important to practise. With the right mindset and a lot of breathing I think your body will respond to that. Peace calm and comfort
– You can try while reading this, how deep breathing totally changes your whole body .

It will be painful as hell – no matter what. The only thing I could do  is the practise and focus to get a stronger mindset. I can do this and I’m excited. See you soon baby.

Choosing a pram, and things to buy stress me out more to be honest.
haha!

 

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