How it all started part 1.


Whilst my memory is fresh I thought to update you guys about our past couple of days here in Varberg hospital.

Sleep deprivation has been the toughest part throughout my pregnancy for sure.
It’s been weeks with next to no sleep and this weekend it has really effected me.
Our Christmas was meant to be spent with my family on the 22nd of December, but there was no chance I had the energy to join in or be part of the day.
On the 21st both Jake and I collected a sleeping tablet from the hospital to help the problem. I was so happy ‘knowing’ that I’d be able to have a full nights sleep and regain some much needed energy. Oh boy.
Another night of, yup, three hours sleep. Exhausted. Woke again at 01.20am, seems to have something special around that time, always twenty past one.
Saturday evening came, they’d given me one more tablet for that night to, so I swallowed that by 10pm.
You guessed it, three more hours…zzz

Sunday was the first time I wanted to check out from my own pregnancy. Had enough, tears were coming and I felt so tired I was beginning to worry.
How on earth could I manage this birth?
Contacted the hospital and she said, ”this is how it is. You are in week 42, you won’t get much more sleep. Try and rest as much as you can.”
She was right – Sunday to Monday ZERO SLEEP.
With my patience running thin, this was certainly not fun anymore. Called again and said I can’t carry on doing this.
Luckily this lady said for us to come in to get some rest and check ups.

My Monday ended up with three sessions of acupuncture, a ‘sleep’ pill, then I finally fell a sleep again, but only for those three magical hours. Stubbornly stayed awake for some time and called on the nurse around 3am. One more go, some new needles and a dose of morphine. Goodnight Mir.

It allowed me to become super relaxed, felt like I was somewhere else. Half the Tuesday blurrily passed by, the morphine’s side effects made me vomit.

Jake went home to pick up some essentials since it going to be a slow day for us.
Nothing to report, other than more waiting.
Talked to the doctor and she said to start the inducement process by Wednesday and explained all the options to us.
After she left, I began thinking and over lunch I decided to get the process started right away.
Not another sleepless night waiting.
May as well be in labour throughout the night instead of lead waiting.

Jakes corner next to my bed. Glad we have our own room.

Said and done.
I had a balloon filled with water placed in my uterus to get my hormones working. A natural way to trick the body and get somewhere without any medication.

Brought my crystal for some luck.

Small contractions in the night but nothing too painful.
More acupuncture before bedtime and one sleeping tablet.
This had been my best sleep since, forever, woke up few times but I dare to say, I probably had 6 hours sleep!

If there were no real contractions by 2pm on wednesday afternoon
I would get a small shot of medicine every second hour that will help the contractions to start and that’s what happend, felt so relaxed, excited and ready. The previous night sleep was truly a game changer.

To be continued…

C h r i s t m a s 2018

Kristin came by for a fika on the 23rd.
I think everyday for the past weeks I get a text a day from her saying,
-How are you feeling today any contractions ?
Thanks love for your support.

I showed her our doves and the hens, she havn’t been in our house in agees.
Think we need to have some office hours here in the next year or simply more fika.

I got a gift, opened it yesterday morning,
I’ll show what it was when we’re back from the hospital.

Best wishes for you and your family this Christmas, we’re expecting our special gift very shortly.

Happy holidays!



Ok, lack of sleep is getting to me now. Waking up at 01.20am for days in a row is beginning to make me very tired. Waiting for the alarm to ring for Jake so I can say good morning and wave him off to work. Also we say: hope the baby comes today.

Week 42 is here. Had an appointment with my midwife this Friday, and she organised a visit to the hospital for me to pick up some sleeping tablets,
But, they haven’t helped.
What I need to do every day instead, is to go to bed during the day and force myself to sleep for an hour or however long I can.
Till this day in my life I have never been able to have a nap during the day. I hear the wind, the foot steps, almost zero chance of me sleeping during the day.
That is now history. Life is about to change!

My sleeping pattern now is my new life. This is how it will be, which is ok. I need to adjust and change. Luckily we soon have a baby to love and cuddle through the nights, which I’m looking forward to.

So, yesterday I listened to meditation & hypnobirthing – it helped straight away. 1 hour kip- HALLELUA !
Midwife also said,
Miranda let go of the control of wanting to know. You simply can’t know anything about ‘whats going to happen’ ‘when or if it’s close’ – Trust the process – just be.

I remember back to a couple of years ago, when I went through personal training in Florida, my biggest fear & strongest side : is just what happens if I don’t know all the answers.

I found out there and then in 2014 I had a strong need knowing, and I don’t really enjoy not knowing what’s next. Turns me into a control freak. For some reason, knowing the next step has always been very important for me.
I’m much better now, but hearing my midwife say that and giving me a hug took me straight back to my coach in Florida. Shit I must trust the process. Let go of planing, just be.

Puh – I done what I got told. Went to bed, stayed in bed till I was relaxed enough, listened to meditation… slept for one hour. Said I couldn’t see my sisters family due to being so exhausted. I slept. One step in the right direction anyway.

What I don’t think I will do is to drink a hot chocolate in the middle of the night when waking up, that was the midwife tip!
When you wake up at 03.00am make your self a cup of hot chocolate and go back to sleep!
I couldn’t think of anything worse, SUGAR at 03.00 am? My body would stay awake for 24 hour more with that boozt…

Naaaa I think she meant green tea.

For the first time last night I felt really sick, joint with very bad heart burn.
Tiny feels of contractions but only tiny.
Feeling sick, thought I was one step closer, but he’s still not here. Might have to call this boy Santa.


watermelon belly

Just opened an email saying:
Your baby is now bigger than a watermelon, oh thanks! 
Going into week 42 today. (41+0) 8 days over time. 

With every new day I keep on thinking today is the day,  have not had a single sign yet. Cannot wait.
He’s too cozy in there I guess. 
Our little christmas baby – it’s time now.

Not much to report other than I think I eat to much chocolate, due to the lack of sleep each night. Guess I need the energy, sleeping in the middle of the day don’t work for me. So chocolate has been my treat to get some energy.

For a couple of weeks it has been 3am wake up, but lately around 01.22am ! Way to early!
It’s so weird when I check the time and it’s 01.22 three days in a row. Last night it was 01.26am so not far from it.

Cashmere set from Blankens. Best gift to myself this year.

Today has been a slow one. Been resting most of the day, cleaning a bit, went out for a walk in the afternoon, and still no sign of a baby wanting to come out.
Had a long conversation with Kristin regarding whats gonna happen in 2019. Fun things a head.

I feel excited for whats to come and also very thankful for all your tips and wishes on my instagram – your support means a lot.


& here’s the recipes

The other day when I updated regarding gifts I never shared the recipes.
So here we go. 

Wiener Nougat
200 gram dark chocolate – melt over a water bath
200 gram nougat – when chocolate is melted, add chunks of nougat stir till melted
100 gram flaked almonds – roast in a pan till golden colour add in the mix above.
Put baking paper in a form. Place in the fridge for few hours – when cold ready to cut.
I did a few big bars and smaller chunks wrapped in paper.

Polly Kladdkaka 
3 dl sugar 
3.5 table spoon cacao
1 3/4 dl flour
1 tea spoon vanilla sugar
pinch of salt
2 dl polly chocolate

To write on the note.
175 degrees
Melt 100gr butter and add 2 eggs
Mix with the ingredients above.
Bake in oven for 15 min.

everything I had in my drawer treat
Use what you have at home.

Dark chocolate 70% + 80%
White chocolate
I melted over a water bath:
Chopped almonds and walnuts.
Roasted these with coconut flakes and in the melt I added some mini marshmallows to.
Put in whatever container you think will be good, leave in fridge for few hours – cut up when it’s hardend. 

If you wanna add some flavour I’d say orange cest would be nice. 
Cinnamon could be lovely. Use your imagination.. no rules. 
Everything with chocolate is a T R E A T !