Changes

Ok, lack of sleep is getting to me now. Waking up at 01.20am for days in a row is beginning to make me very tired. Waiting for the alarm to ring for Jake so I can say good morning and wave him off to work. Also we say: hope the baby comes today.

Week 42 is here. Had an appointment with my midwife this Friday, and she organised a visit to the hospital for me to pick up some sleeping tablets,
But, they haven’t helped.
What I need to do every day instead, is to go to bed during the day and force myself to sleep for an hour or however long I can.
Till this day in my life I have never been able to have a nap during the day. I hear the wind, the foot steps, almost zero chance of me sleeping during the day.
That is now history. Life is about to change!

My sleeping pattern now is my new life. This is how it will be, which is ok. I need to adjust and change. Luckily we soon have a baby to love and cuddle through the nights, which I’m looking forward to.

So, yesterday I listened to meditation & hypnobirthing – it helped straight away. 1 hour kip- HALLELUA !
Midwife also said,
Miranda let go of the control of wanting to know. You simply can’t know anything about ‘whats going to happen’ ‘when or if it’s close’ – Trust the process – just be.


I remember back to a couple of years ago, when I went through personal training in Florida, my biggest fear & strongest side : is just what happens if I don’t know all the answers.

I found out there and then in 2014 I had a strong need knowing, and I don’t really enjoy not knowing what’s next. Turns me into a control freak. For some reason, knowing the next step has always been very important for me.
I’m much better now, but hearing my midwife say that and giving me a hug took me straight back to my coach in Florida. Shit I must trust the process. Let go of planing, just be.

Puh – I done what I got told. Went to bed, stayed in bed till I was relaxed enough, listened to meditation… slept for one hour. Said I couldn’t see my sisters family due to being so exhausted. I slept. One step in the right direction anyway.

What I don’t think I will do is to drink a hot chocolate in the middle of the night when waking up, that was the midwife tip!
When you wake up at 03.00am make your self a cup of hot chocolate and go back to sleep!
I couldn’t think of anything worse, SUGAR at 03.00 am? My body would stay awake for 24 hour more with that boozt…

Naaaa I think she meant green tea.

For the first time last night I felt really sick, joint with very bad heart burn.
Tiny feels of contractions but only tiny.
Feeling sick, thought I was one step closer, but he’s still not here. Might have to call this boy Santa.

Exciting.

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  1. Du får mig minnas hur kroppen och sömnen anpassade sig till bebis rytm. Redan innan. Det är som vågor att hänga med i. Go with the flow. ❤️
    Svårt, I know.